I'm starting

to not care about much of anything anymore.
I only really seem to tolerate Parker, Mike, Kyle and a new friend.
I can see what all of my past girlfriends meant when they said "You've changed.".
It's troublesome, but I think it's because I have my eyes set on one goal.
It can't be fixed, I WILL get what I want, at whatever cost.
Memphis is making me more restless everyday, I'm starting to feel sore and I don't sleep hardly.
It might just be my insomnia getting worse, and my vision is too.
The only thing to do at this time is to stay the course and plan for something to happen; because I know it will.
No longer am I making plans for the future with others, I hardly spend any money on myself or anyone for that matter.
Reality has hit me hard, and I just now realize that I may never live in FL again or be close with my friends like I want to.
I just don't want to fade out; I want to reclaim my reputation I had in Lakeland as a nice, caring and relaxed guy.
I need help and I don't mean the Religious or personal kind.
Just something, anything.